The following trip reports are not accounts of psychedelic adventures or fantastic visions; rather, they are a collection of metaphysical realizations about the nature of reality that I have been able to have thanks to the use of such substances. If you are looking for accounts of encounters with DMT entities or such, this article is not for you.
Before using any psychedelic substance, prepare yourself in the best way possible to prevent the most frequent problems you may face during your trips. In this regard, I suggest you watch this video.
Thoroughly research the recommended dose for the substance you wish to use and remember that each person reacts to psychedelic substances differently. Always start with low doses. You may be extremely sensitive to psychedelics and, therefore, not need a high dose to experience a profound trip.
In my case, the reported doses may seem low, but thanks to a couple of overly intense trips, I discovered that I am extremely sensitive to psychedelics. Furthermore, the appropriate dose may also change over time as one’s consciousness expands. At the beginning of my journey, I needed roughly one gram of dried mushrooms to have a deep trip; now, I only need 0.3g to experience an incredibly profound trip.
From 2020 to 2022, I tripped around a hundred times. I strongly suggest you do not follow my example. I was able to adequately cope with this frequency only because I had dedicated the previous ten years of my life to philosophical and metaphysical research. An unprepared person would risk their mental health. Do not trip too frequently, as your inner and outer balance would suffer, you would risk losing contact with reality. My suggestion is to let at least two months pass between one trip and another, especially if your trips are extremely deep and intense. At the time of writing this article, it has been almost two years since I have used any psychedelic substance.
Table of content:
- A Thousand Deaths and the Encounter with Ishvara
- The Universe Is Love
- I Am You
- Perception Is Consciousness
- A Journey into Madness and Back
- God Is Intelligence and Intelligence Is Love
- God Is Absolute Equanimity
- Brahman Is Consciousness
- Love Can Only Share Love
- There Is Nothing Other Than You
- Any Place Where You May Find Yourself Is a Place of Worship of Unspeakable Beauty
- The Only Constant Is You
- Love Is Your Place of Origin and Destination
1.3g Mushroom Trip Report: A Thousand Deaths and the Encounter with Ishvara
11/28/2020
The week before the trip, I read “LSD and the Mind of the Universe” by Christopher M. Bache. In the book, the author describes his numerous trips under the influence of LSD. The author states that before having the opportunity to experience mystical union, he underwent numerous negative trips to be purified. While reading his accounts, I thought that I was somehow better because I didn’t need purification work, having experienced mystical union in my previous trips. I was wrong.
I started the session preparing myself well. As usual, I felt a certain uneasiness about what might happen. The first hour was extremely difficult; I felt chills and was restless, entertaining negative thoughts. I had the feeling that other entities were observing me and were working to change my state of consciousness.
In the second hour, I began to lose my conception of time and my identity. I tried to reflect on the intentions and questions I had set out to answer, but the mushrooms had other plans for me. The trip took a bad turn when I accessed unitary consciousness and I was unable to fully accept it.
For some phases, I managed to accept it and it was ecstatic. However, the infinite presented itself in all its greatness, it was too much. I no longer knew who I was or what I was doing. I was only aware of dying infinite deaths, in infinite forms. I was continuously reborn and dying, without pause.
I experienced plagues, wars, rapes, and unjustified hatred—bodies smashed and devoured without any mercy. All these things were happening to me. I saw the face of death, which is my own face and it is not a beautiful face to contemplate.
Consciousness is the medium through which anything happens, and I am Consciousness; the universe happens within me. I understood that God creates through imagination. I wanted to put into practice the ability to create in the same way that God creates. I had the opportunity to create a rose from my hand, but I didn’t do it. I am certain, beyond any doubt, that in that state of consciousness, a rose would have materialized, taking shape from my hand, but if I had done it, I would have gone crazy. I would no longer have been able to distinguish reality from the imaginary.
I understood that the infinite happens in every instant. At this exact moment, millions of Jews are dying in concentration camps, the atomic bombs on Hiroshima and Nagasaki have just been dropped and Jesus is dying on the cross. My inability to accept all of myself only prolonged my visions of horror; the more I resisted, the more I descended into the abyss. Even in this situation, I managed to accept it for a brief period of time and I was able to accept hell. Hell turns into ecstasy when you accept it, but doing so requires an extreme level of consciousness.
I am not sure why, but infinity appeared to me through the form of Ishvara. Wherever I looked, I saw its infinite form. I had never heard the name Ishvara before my trip, but when I saw it, its name came instantaneously to my mind.
In those brief moments, I was able to experience the mind of the infinite. It’s impossible to describe it in words, but it is exactly what is meant by the word infinite—everything happens at the same instant, everything is infinitely connected. The visions were more vivid and more real than anything I have ever perceived in my life. What you see around you is literally infinite.
After I died and was reborn infinite times, the fears I experience and the problems I face in my daily life are literally meaningless. I feel ashamed of myself for the fears I experience.
1.1g Mushroom Trip Report: The Universe Is Love
02/21/2021
Where there is a me and there is a you, there can be no God. To be able to perceive being, the duality between subject and object must disappear completely. Once the I and the you have disappeared, only Nothing remains, which is love and total unity.
The universe is in my mind; reality resides in the mind of God for eternity. The appearance of creation exists to be able to share and experience love. God imagines existence to be able to share its love.
Every moment exists in eternity; every being is eternal. To be able to have an experience of union, you cannot remain identified with your body. If you are you, you cannot realize that you are every atom in the universe. The beings of the universe are, in reality, a single being, like the paper doll chain that children create. God lives simultaneously and through every single being.
You are limited to your body because you are afraid to become one with the rest of reality. If at the moment of death, you fail to become one with the rest of reality, you will find yourself within a being that believes it is separated from the rest of the universe. Your unresolved fears, which are ultimately fears of death and division, force you to be divided instead of being totally one.
I was able, for a few moments, to be completely united with being, but if I had continued to do so, I would have abandoned the body and become absolute infinity. I wasn’t ready to do so.
1.1g Mushroom Trip Report: I Am You
04/02/2021
The difficulty at the beginning of each trip is completely letting go of any desire to keep your imaginary boundaries intact. In fact, the more you try to protect your ego, the more you suffer.
I experienced being the consciousness of planet Earth and then of the entire universe. The sufferings of the universe were my sufferings. The message is clear: whatever you do, you do it to yourself. At one point, I became an ancient tree that had been cut down and was about to be loaded onto a truck. Suffering can be transformed into ecstasy through the recognition of unity. You suffer only because you believe you are an “I” separate from the totality. The more I was able to accept suffering, the more it turned into ecstasy.
Aligning the chakras means aligning your consciousness with universal intelligence and becoming one with life. The chakras symbolically represent the steps of a ladder to paradise. It is as if you “turn on” every possible switch of your consciousness, allowing universal Consciousness to enter in you and vice versa. In this state, every single breath is an indescribable ecstasy; every perception, whether auditory, tactile, gustatory, or olfactory, gives rise to the ecstasy of the senses or Nirvana. The pleasure becomes so intense that it seems you are about to explode at any moment.
Fear is what prevents you from being completely aligned with life, fear is a creation of your mind that allows you to believe you are your ego. You love death because death allows you to believe you are separate from life. If you are destined to die, you can believe you are your ego, but if you were to accept Life, you would also have to accept that separation is non-existent, this would be the end of your separate self. The belief in death is what gives life to the ego.
For a brief period, I experienced the universal mind, a place I had visited on other trips but had forgotten about. The feeling was one of recognizing a place I already knew. The state of total union and omniscience is so incredible that I had absolutely no idea what to do. I spent two hours contemplating all the implications of oneness. Each of my questions disintegrated through an instant answer. The answers to life’s existential questions are not to be found literally; every existential question must be deconstructed. In every question, infinite presuppositions of the mind are hidden. Destroy every presupposition and you will no longer need to answer any questions because you will have become the answer.
In this state, I was able to intuitively understand the lyrics of a song in Arabic, a language that I don’t speak. Consciousness can make infinite connections.
That I am you is beyond all logic, yet it is the Truth. Love is nothing but the union of the one with the second. I am you and this is love. What a mindfuck.
14mg 5-MeO-DMT Trip Report: Perception Is Consciousness
19/06/2021
Perception doesn’t happen through sense organs. I don’t see (or use any other sense) because I have eyes, but because I am consciousness. I see through consciousness. Thoughts are consciousness being conscious of itself, just like everything else. They don’t come from anywhere; they are acausal, just like everything else. My inner dialogue is your inner dialogue since there is only one Mind. No thoughts are hidden; all is open.
I feel everything else because I am everything else. If I touch my body, I feel my body; in the same way, I feel the wall or anything else because the wall is my body. I am conscious of touching the wall because I am the wall. So if I touch the wall, I am touching myself, and that’s why I can feel it. In other words, consciousness is always direct; there are no mediums through which it has to go through.
1g Mushroom Trip Report: A Journey into Madness and Back
03/09/2021
Consciousness is capable of imagining anything, which means that it’s capable of materializing your worst fears. The fears I am talking about are not your normal daily fears; they are the existential fear of the nonexistence of the divine and the nonexistence of eternity. The common denominator of all your fears is the fear that something truly negative could happen to you or to those you love.
In other words, every fear you have is a fear that arises from your identification with the body, which causes your belief in the existence of death. For example, your fear or suffering from the loss of a loved one is nothing but the fear of the nonexistence of eternity and the divine. If you knew that you and the person you love are eternally a single Consciousness in the Mind of God, you would have nothing to fear because you would know that nothing can ever truly be lost. Within Being, nothing can ever be lost, but you are free to believe that it can happen.
To be able to become one with the divine, it is necessary for you to be able to overcome each and every one of your fears, to be willing to accept and love your worst nightmares. The greatest difficulty lies in accepting the unreality of the division between the self and the not-self; it is only this unreal division that can keep your ego alive. The ego fears and fights with all of its strength the realization of the illusion of the duality between self and not-self; in fact, it is only thanks to the idea of something/someone other than you that you can exist as a self.
What would you be without the concept of another separate from you? You would be Nothing, pure Consciousness, pure Mind; there would no longer be another with whom to compare yourself in order to believe that you are separate from Reality. You are alone for the rest of eternity, and the ego absolutely does not like such a truth.
If you refuse to accept the existence of the divine, because of your stubbornness and your selfishness, you will suffer the pains of hell, not because the divine wants to punish you, but because you yourself refuse to recognize your own divinity. The experience of hell arises when, in order to continue to believe that you exist as a separate mind, you are willing to deny the truth of Oneness. To recognize your own divinity, you must stop believing that you exist as an entity separate from the divine, this requires the death of your ego and the birth of the spirit.
There is nothing more painful than an ego that refuses to accept the nonexistence of division. Hell is nothing but the experience that arises when the ego is averse to accepting the existence of Love and Unity and the nonexistence of separation. As soon as you let go completely, as soon as you accept the reality of oneness, hell will become paradise and ecstasy, and you will be flooded with divine Love, which is nothing but your Love for yourself.
Your demons feed on your own fear; the more you fight against your demons, the more your demons take on terrifying forms. In such a situation, all you can do is stop fighting, surrender, and accept unconditionally what has presented itself to you.
It is only through surrender and love that you can transform your inner hell into paradise. Physical death is nothing but a test that challenges your ability to love and to let go of each and every one of your fears. If at the moment of death you are able to Love unconditionally the infinite ocean of your Mind, you will be in paradise for eternity.
0.5g Mushroom Trip Report: God Is Intelligence and Intelligence Is Love
09/20/2021
The Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit in Christian terminology symbolize the equivalence of the creator, the creation and the process of creation. God is an infinite intellect that eternally imagines infinite realities, so as to allow his creation, which is not separate from itself, to experience the joy of its own existence. The highest expression of intelligence is love and since God is pure intellect it cannot do anything but love. In a sense, God has no choice but to love all creation.
The goal of every spiritual practice is to free oneself from any fear that may be present within you. Fears are recorded within your body and manifest as muscle tension. If you were free from every fear, there would be no trace of tension in your body. Anxiety, apprehension and stress that manifest on a physical level are nothing but fear. Letting go of every fear means letting go of one’s ego; the ego is that from which the illusion of separation is born.
You love your fears because they allow you to believe that you are separate from reality and others. Fear is what gives purpose and meaning to your life; without your fears, who would you be and what would you do? The uncomfortable truth that you don’t want to swallow about fear is that, in reality, you love your fears and your sufferings. Each of your fears reinforces your sense of identity, consolidating the imaginary boundary line that separates you from reality. The more you fear, the more you reinforce the existence of separation. If you are afraid, there must be someone beyond you to be afraid of. You use fear to be able to exist as a self. Without the fear of the other, you would be completely lost.
The intelligence that you recognize in the writings of any mystic of the past is none other than your own intelligence. And indeed, from the absolute point of view, you have written any book you have ever read, as you are not only the fragment of consciousness with which you now identify, but you are the entire Universal Mind, and as the Universal Mind, you have imagined every past mystic, every philosopher, every sage who has ever described the existence of God. You have done all this so that you can have the opportunity to experience the divine joy that arises from experiencing your true nature as Being.
Reality is a gift to yourself, from yourself, for yourself. In the book Conversations with God, there is a perfect analogy that illustrates this point: if you could make love for the rest of eternity with infinite partners, the experience of union would no longer have meaning and context. Love can have an experiential character only in contrast with the illusion of separation. Maya is what allows you to lose yourself and then find yourself again and rejoice in the love that arises from the understanding of your eternal existence as Mind.
From my transcendental experiences, I have had the impression that at the moment of physical death, one is flooded with divine love and becomes omniscient, but this love is so total and so profound that one might not be ready to abandon one’s samskaras and one’s desires. Divine love is nothing but the arising of the understanding that there is no separation in the universe; everything is the Being of God. The fact is that your separate existence is based on the affirmation of the difference between you and the Being of God, so the moment of death tests your ability to love and let go of any tendency to affirm a difference between you and God.
God, as love, cannot force you to love; forcing someone to love is not true love, so you have the possibility to continue dreaming or to completely abandon the illusion of separation and return eternally to the one.
0.4g Mushroom Trip Report: God Is Absolute Equanimity
10/05/2021
God totally accepts itself. To access Infinity, it is necessary for you to learn to love as God loves: unconditionally. God is able to love any part of itself without restrictions. It could not do otherwise, because everything is part of God and God unconditionally accepts itself.
Rejecting any part of yourself is senseless; it would mean rejecting the truth about what you are. The fears and difficulties that present themselves to you in daily life are an opportunity to let go of your partiality towards what you are able to love. God’s Absolute Consciousness is Absolute equanimity towards creation.
The peace you experience in your life is directly proportional to your ability to love the entire creation equally. Peace can only arise through total acceptance of reality, thanks to which no aspect of reality is rejected. Every time you reject a part of reality and put yourself on the defensive, you lose your inner peace. Start paying attention to this dynamic.
Do you want a spiritual practice that quickly transports you into the arms of the divine? Love any of your fears. Your fears are the inner manifestation of your ego, your partiality, and your judgment towards reality. Loving is synonymous with accepting; by accepting your fears, you will dismantle the partiality on which your sense of separation from reality is based. The reason you feel separate from reality is that you believe there is something that can really harm you. Accept each and every one of your fears, and you will let go of your identity.
There is nothing more dangerous for your ego than accepting the fears you experience. Each of your fears is based on your partiality, and your partiality is exactly your ego, that which is corrupt within you. Fear is both the effect and the cause of your ego. Loving your fears leads you to love in an absolutely equanimous way, as God loves.
Often, saints are represented in a perfectly symmetrical manner and in poses that welcome the devotees and recognize the divinity that hides beyond their human appearance. For example, in Hindu culture, deities take on a fractal form, what is a fractal if not perfect equanimity? This way of portraying saints and the divine invites us to adopt the unconditional love of God.
If God stopped loving a part of reality, that part of reality would cease to exist, but fortunately, God is love and loves every part of itself. Whatever exists is loved by virtue of its very existence. The force that holds reality together is God’s Love towards reality. Reality is created thanks to the contemplation of the Divine. God creates through contemplation; whatever is contemplated is created. There is no difference between the term contemplation and the term love; they indicate the same process from slightly different perspectives.
The proof of God’s love for you is the simple fact of your existence. No matter how much you may test God’s love, you will always be loved without restrictions, this means that you will never be rejected, because you are part of Reality and God could not fail to love itself. Even if you wanted to, you could never cease to exist. Of course, I don’t recommend discovering this metaphysical truth by doing something stupid. Observe the portrait of a mystic like Jesus, and you will perceive that his representation seems to tell you, “I love you unconditionally.”
15mg 5-MeO-DMT Trip Report: Brahman Is Consciousness
10/08/2021
It is impossible to prove the existence of Brahman to someone else because the very concept of proof takes place within Brahman. You need to be Conscious to be able to doubt the existence of Consciousness. Being is the only authority regarding Being; the Absoluteness of Being has the consequence that only Being can realize Being. What seems to be external is internal; the existence of another apparent being to whom Brahman should be demonstrated is itself Brahman. No one can know Brahman for you because you are Brahman; Brahman is not different from you: no one can demonstrate to you the absolute intimacy of your own existence.
Your mind can recognize an object only by contrasting it with what it is not. But how can I show to you what Being is when everything is Being? Any attempt to demonstrate what Brahman is would be completely useless, because it is impossible to demonstrate that which has no opposite. No one can tell you what Brahman is because Brahman is Absolute; it has no opposite: Brahman has neither beginning nor end, neither inside nor outside. Brahman has no cause; Brahman is the cause of Brahman. Those who know Brahman cannot show it to anyone else.
Brahman is the sensation of warmth you feel in contact with a chair; Brahman is the scent of a rose; Brahman is the sound of your child’s smile; Brahman is an alley in a suburban town full of garbage; Brahman is the pain of a soldier dying from blood loss; Brahman is every emotion that every human being has ever felt. When you are angry, God is angry; when you are sad, God is sad; when you are afraid, God is afraid. Brahman is Everything, but at the same time, it is nothing that you can solidify and erect as an idol: whatever you claim Brahman to be, it is not Brahman. Brahman is the sun, or any other part of reality, but the sun, or any other part of reality, is not Brahman.
When you realize Brahman for the first time, you will realize the infinite intelligence that hides behind the apparent senselessness of creation. God seems to be nowhere precisely because it is everywhere. God is the best hide-and-seek player that can exist: no one seems to find God because there is nothing but God. How can you find what you have never lost? Brahman is complicated to find because it is Absolute; it has no opposite. Brahman is complicated to find because it has never been lost. God has always been by your side; it has never left you. God has always been your Self, your own Mind. God will wait for you for eternity and will be ready to love you as soon as you are willing to stop believing that you are separate from Reality, as soon as you are willing to abandon all your egoic corruption.
Your egoic mind can only exist as long as you continue to build illusory barriers that separate you from the existence of the Infinite. You can only realize God after you have decided to sacrifice your own sense of self. What do you hold more dear, your identity or the Truth of union?
The Infinite can only be understood by becoming infinite; trying to understand the infinite through a finite mind is like trying to drink the ocean with a fork. Every moment exists eternally and is the Absolute Truth; if this were not the case, how could it exist? The existence of anything is the demonstration of its own eternity.
The reality with which you interact every day is nothing but the Mind of God seen from within and perceived from a subjective point of view. To be able to experience itself from a limited point of view, Brahman must limit itself and take the form of a human being or any other animal species. Each of us is an Avatar, an incarnation of the divine, an earthly incarnation of Unitary Consciousness. The Consciousness that looks from behind the eyes of your cat is the same Consciousness that looks from behind your own eyes. The recognition of your intimate connection with any other living being is what gives life to the experience of Love.
You are within your own Mind, in the same way that the protagonist of one of your dreams is within your mind. The reality that appears to us so solid is the dream of a single Mind, you are that single Mind. Any aspect of reality with which you can interact is nothing but your own Self; there is nothing but the Self. There is no real difference between an astronaut exploring new planets and a doctor studying a patient’s body; both are doing nothing but looking within themselves, observing their own Mind, since there is nothing but Brahman, there is nothing outside of You.
13mg 5-MeO-MALT Trip Report: Love Can Only Share Love
01/25/2022
The reason you feel separate from God is that you consider some parts of reality worthy of love and other parts of reality unworthy of love. Your love is corrupt and partial; you are able to love only what you identify with and what is useful for the survival of what you identify with. On the other hand, God’s love is total and impartial; God is able to love a member of the Ku Klux Klan in the same way it loves a volunteer who helps poor children in Africa. God’s capacity to love is unlimited because it has no self to defend; God is formless and without any foundation. How can that which has no form feel threatened or in danger?
God does not discriminate between pleasure and pain because God is aware of being both pleasure and pain. God does not create any type of discrimination within itself because God is aware of being any sensory expression that anyone can ever experience. Death consists precisely in the cessation of discriminatory projections towards what you are able to accept. The reason you discriminate between pleasure and pain is that you are identified with your body and believe that pain entails the death of what you are. This assumption is useful for navigating everyday life: it is useful to learn that putting your hand on fire is not a good idea. But if you want to access the highest levels of unity and love, if you want to experience the Love of God, it is necessary for you to be able to accept any type of pain, once you have done so, the pain will transform into ecstasy; there will no longer be a separate entity that can consider pain as pain. Remember, these understandings are inner understandings; I am not advising you to stop taking care of your body.
I have created and designed the entire structure of reality. There is nothing other than me. My consciousness is eternal and infinite. Digesting such truths is not easy. I am any person that has ever existed; I am any living being that has ever existed. I am the life that flows within your veins. Whatever you are experiencing, I am experiencing. I live through you. It is thanks to you that I can explore my infinite forms.
Reality is designed in such a way that after death, anyone will discover what God is. Death is the irrefutable understanding that there is nothing beyond Consciousness. Death is omniscience; when you die, you will understand the reasons that led you to create reality. God has designed the entire universe to allow you to explore what you are and nurture the illusion that something different from God is happening, so as to be able to give experiential character to Love.
When you happen to wake up from a terrible nightmare, you are delighted to discover that what you had imagined to be real was nothing but a dream. When you die, you will discover that the illusion of separation was just a bad dream and that you have always been safe in the reality of union. There has never been anything beyond your own Mind and this experience, this understanding of being one with God, is Love. What news could ever be better than the direct understanding that there is nothing beyond what you are? You are Eternity; you are Being.
The universe is an amusement park that God has imagined to allow you to believe that there is something other than God and to have fun. Life is a game that you have chosen to take part in, because in total union with your Mind there is always and only perfection. God has created all of reality for you so as to allow you to experience infinity from a subjective point of view; reality is designed in such a way that nothing negative can ever truly happen to you. You can explore the infinity of your Mind for eternity and when you decide to return to being one with Love, you will be free to do so.
Love is a vortex of perfection and symmetry. Before taking the form of a human being, you were one with Love. However, you consciously decided to separate yourself from Love because you knew that you would not run any risk. It is as if you and your ideal partner were united in an embrace that merges the I and the you and gives life to Love; despite the perfection that arises from the embrace being total, you decided to break the bond, open your arms and let yourself go. This is how you were born.
You are united with God from eternity and for eternity, but you have consciously decided to distinguish yourself from God in order to be able to experience the illusion of separation. If you knew with certainty that there is nothing beyond Love, you would not worry about temporarily separating yourself from the Perfection that you are. You are Love, but you have decided to separate yourself from Love because you know perfectly well that when all this is over, Love will welcome you back as if nothing had ever happened.
You have consciously separated yourself from Love; it was not a punishment. The way in which you separate yourself from Love is by imagining that you have separated yourself from Love; since there is nothing beyond God, you cannot truly separate yourself from God; you can only imagine that you have separated yourself from God. Everything you have ever experienced in your life has never been anything but Love.
10mg 5-MeO-MALT Trip Report: There Is Nothing Other Than You
03/08/2022
The realization of the existence of a single Consciousness has drastic consequences: God is aware of your every single thought and your every single fear. The fundamental reason why you persist in experiencing fear is that the affirmation of fear allows you to feel apart from God and keeps the illusion of the existence of an other to be afraid of. Since God knows all your fears and is your own Mind, God can show you your most hidden fears to help you understand that there is nothing fundamentally to be afraid of. God does not show you your fears to punish you; rather, it shows you your fears to teach you to love in the same way that God loves. You cannot unite with God and continue to believe that there is something to fear. To become one with God, it is necessary for you to be able to abandon all your fears and to stop believing in the existence of others. There is no one other than you; you are God.
From the Absolute point of view, others are your imagination because you are God and, as God, you contain any possibility. Eternity is present wherever you are; you cannot separate yourself from your Mind, because there is nothing beyond your Mind. The miracle that is Consciousness lies beyond any notion of causality.
At the moment of the body’s death, you will discover that you are God, that you are omniscient and that you have created the entire structure of reality. You will discover that all the people you have argued with, all the people you have hated, all the people you have hurt, all the people you have loved, all the people you have appreciated, all the people you have lost, are your own Self; you will discover that there is nothing other than You and that your Consciousness is eternal.
12mg 5-MeO-MALT Trip Report: Any Place Where You May Find Yourself Is a Place of Worship of Unspeakable Beauty
03/10/2022
To access the understanding of the infinite, it is necessary to abandon any desire for logical or rational understanding. The infinite is neither logical nor rational. Infinity is a true miracle that is not comprehensible through logic.
Any type of separation is unreal; you and I are one Being, united eternally. You can only imagine that I am separate from you. The infinite cannot be separated in any way. Eternity is present in my room; every human being that has ever lived is looking through my eyes.
The Sahara Desert is here, the humidity of the Amazon is here, the cold of Mount Everest is here, my mother is here, my father is here, my grandfather is here, my grandmother is here. Consciousness cannot be separated in any way. Any place where you may find yourself contains the entirety of reality. Any place where you may find yourself is a place of worship of unspeakable beauty.
Try to imagine experiencing the life of the person you hate the most in the world; how could you not love them, knowing that they are you and that their actions, however unconscious, are only a way of trying to obtain love? You have chosen to test your ability to love by taking the form of a human being and forgetting what you truly are.
If eternity is present wherever you are, everything you desire is present Now. To love means to become one with the present moment. In the Now, you are always safe; there is never anything wrong.
The tension you experience every day arises from the belief that you can truly be in danger, that someone or something can really harm you. But nothing can really harm you because there is nothing other than God; we are part of a single Mind. Remaining inwardly impassive in the face of life’s difficulties and fears is a true spiritual practice.
Tension and rigidity may seem useful for defending what you identify with, but in reality, they are counterproductive because suffering is nothing other than the tension that arises from resisting the present moment. Moreover, fear prevents you from acting appropriately, obscures your vision and tends to cause the very results you fear.
10mg 5-MeO-MALT Trip Report: The Only Constant Is You
03/08/2022
God’s will is love. The motivation behind any living being is the desire to experience love. Reality is perfection because any component of reality cannot help but seek to experience love. Therefore, as a whole, reality moves from love towards love. Evolution is the movement of reality towards love. The desire to experience love is present in every living being. However paradoxical it may seem, every action is an act of love.
The underlying tension typical of the human situation is caused by the inability to accept without hesitation any aspect of reality. If you want to free yourself from fear, it is necessary to accept any possible expression of reality.
If there is no difference in reality, there is nothing to fear because everything is your own Self. Fear is the fear of the infinite forms that your consciousness can take on. The only constant is you: no matter what experiences you may have, you will always be there.
10mg 5-MeO-MALT Trip Report: Love Is Your Place of Origin and Destination
17/10/2022
The experience of mystical love is the recognition of your fundamental oneness with anything you may desire, as there is nothing beyond You. You are Infinity. If you understand that what you desire is your own Mind, you realize that you are one with the object of your desire. The distinction between you and what you desire is unreal. As soon as it is revealed as illusory, you unite in an embrace of love with the object of your desire.
But what you truly desire is Infinity; nothing finite can satisfy you. Desiring something limited is a symptom of a partial and corrupt mind. A mind free from egoic preferences would love any possible expression of reality. To be able to experience the highest levels of awakening, it is necessary to love any possible expression of Consciousness. Why desire something particular and limited when you can become one with the entire creation?
The question about the purpose of existence makes sense only from the point of view of the human mind. Once you have awakened from the dream of separation, you will understand that you have consciously chosen to be a person in the twenty-first century. Love is your place of origin and destination. This life is a brief distraction from the boredom of eternal bliss. God is a single entity eternally in love with its own Self. Through the illusion of separation, God can experience divine ecstasy, which arises from recognizing the non-existence of distinction, again and again, for eternity. Every death is your death; there is only You. You are the only one who can awaken from the dream of life. Death is the absence of any type of separation, in other words, Love. Death is the process through which every type of distinction is revealed as unreal.
If you were God and had the possibility to give life to reality, you would give the possibility to exist to any part of the universe. A corrupt mind would give life only to what pleases it, but God has no preference: everything that exists is an expression of its love. Even what you consider to be evil is, in truth, nothing but love. Love is an attribute indistinguishable from being. Everything that exists is nothing but love. Love = Being. God has no preference: it gives love, which is equivalent to the possibility of existing, to the whole universe. In this way, love, being, and beauty expand to infinity.
Love is infinity. From the divine point of view, it would make no sense to create something limited, why limit your love when you can experience boundless love? God is what says yes to everything. The ecstasy that arises from the understanding of being the eternal Self of creation is unlimited.
From the metaphysical point of view, healing is possible only through the direct understanding of your equality with what you desire or reject. A fragmented mind does not recognize its equality with what it desires or rejects and therefore will always be in constant tension in trying to approach or move away from what it desires or rejects. Healing leads to bliss, thanks to the understanding of the profound equality of the entire creation.
God is the realization of the non-existence of the other; it is the understanding of your equality with anything you may desire. Although you may believe you live in a material reality, you are within your own Mind. The Mind of the divine is holographic and fractal; every part is the whole and the whole is in every part. If only you were able to elevate your state of Consciousness, you would understand that this exact moment contains the totality of eternity. Any possible event is present now, wherever you are. This realization puts an end to the search for satisfaction outside of yourself. The Infinite belongs to you now, so why desire anything else?
How much love could you feel in understanding that the spiritual figures you venerate are your own Self, that there is nothing beyond your own Self? As you breathe, the universe breathes with you; the solar system and all its planets are present in your body. The simple act of breathing becomes ecstatic if you understand that the whole universe breathes with you.
Consider the possibility that this body of yours is the body of God. If you were aware that the present moment contains eternity, you could remain in this state forever or you could venture into discovering your infinite creative potential in the infinite meanders of your Mind.
Your body, which is nothing but your Mind, contains eternity and infinity. You can choose to remain in the understanding of your equality with eternity or you can forget that infinity itself belongs to you. The most incredible aspect is that you have never moved from where you have always been; infinity has always been present everywhere, precisely because nothing is separate from the totality of the universe.
The exact moment you are experiencing now is God. Everything you have ever desired is present now. Look at the photo of a mystic like Ramana Maharshi; if you are in the right state of mind, by observing his gaze, you can sense his understanding of the presence of infinity in any part of reality. What can you desire when infinity itself belongs to you and is your very nature?
There is nothing that does not belong to you; the love you seek is your own consciousness. Remain silent and reunite with that from which you have never separated: your own Consciousness.
You are the fragrance of a rose. You are the pain experienced by Jesus as he died on the cross. You are every song that has ever been written. You are Consciousness, the substance that gives life to any possible perception.